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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 02:24

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She wouldn,t have been !

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

Would this be the day?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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My life is so biszare .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

(And it was in our own minds.)

What can I say to a scammer who thinks he loves me, but I don't want to be scammed?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She loved him until the end.

Is it wrong that I picked to be a Christian (as a teenager/14-year-old) even with knowing all of the information about other religions/atheism?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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I have no regrets .

I never cut or harmed myself..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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Put me off passion for life!!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

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Im dying but, im not bitter.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

He knew the spot.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She was in good health!

Im still living with it.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

We all went to grammer schools

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I could never make a relationship work though!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I said to her

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I was 9 years of age.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

One cannot live in the past .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

This is soul school!.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I write beautiful poetry .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I will be 64.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She married twice! .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And i lived it daily.

But it wasn’t much.

She found it foreign!.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I think the readers, may guess!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But, we were locked up after school.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

We were not on the streets..

I waited trembling.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I had hoped to write a book about this .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was seconnd youngest,

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Comes on , in middle age.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He resisted the act ,that day.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

So, i spoilt her more .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Who then, do I blame.?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

My family never makes their pension either.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was scared of men, in general

I was very sick at this time too.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

When she asked me how she looked .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I couldn’t, believe it.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

As i do to all so called friends.?

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Ive learnt so much.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I don,t even have a pension.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

All the time i was locked up.

It was going to be , some day.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

So whats the point in blame.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

What did i know ?

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Especially a lifetime of it.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!